Channeled Art

By Lesley Gardiner

I have gone through many emotional integrations and healings in my own life & none more so than navigating the challenges of the last few years!

At times, it was difficult to name the emotions that were arriving as they had been hidden for so long and I realised that for years I had been building a fortress around some of my deepest wounds in order to survive and protect myself within the environment I had created and was currently living in.

In 2020, as I am sure many of you will relate, my environment was forcibly changed and as a result, my fortress began to crumble! It no longer supported my new way of life & my new way of life no longer supported it !

My attempts to repair & rebuild the walls were futile. I came up against so much resistance that one day, feeling hopeless & helpless, I held my hands up and ALLOWED the pieces to break away!

As each piece fell, I allowed the emotion to be fully felt & expressed and as each emotion was expressed a sense of relief & freedom surrounded me. As my Internal World changed, my external World was also changing and in the most amazing ways. This inspired me to metaphorically take a hammer & chisel to the process & as I carefully chiselled away at the lifetime of conditioning, programming and limiting beliefs, I started to reveal the most empowered woman I have ever known....the true self, the authentic self, the Sovereign self...it was Me!

At times during my healing, these new, high frequency emotions and feelings were quite uncomfortable & overwhelming as I had never allowed myself to feel them. On one of these days, I felt guided to pick up a paintbrush (something I hadn't done since High School) and see if I could capture a visual interpretation of this journey I was taking back to "myself".

I have created many "visions" since & have some of these paintings displayed in the therapy room. Many of my clients have resonated with the interpretations as they peel back their own layers & shifting perspectives of their own lives.

Above is my 1st painting named simply, "I Am..."